Another Update

Hi.
First of all, I’d like to thank you all for visiting my blog even though I haven’t posted anything at all for the last 2 months. (The only up to date thing on this blog was my Instagram post.)

I knew that I had to write something like what happened after the job interviews I mentioned last time. But I just didn’t feel like it. I was even more disappointed by the rejections especially because the both interviews went really well.
It’s hard when you want to try something totally different, however you don’t have experience nor qualification for that job. How would you get experience when they don’t give a chance to you?
It’s frustrating.

So yes. I felt ashamed. I didn’t feel like writing about my failures. It was hard enough to share the results with my colleagues who were excited for me.

To be really honest, I’m not in a good place right now.
I mean, my relationships are great. I love my life I get to spend with my beloved boyfriend. He is incredible.
And I reconnected with a very good friend of mine after such a long time. Both of us were busy with stuffs and we lost in touch eventually. 7 years is such a long absence. But funny thing is, we didn’t feel like we had no contact for ages the moment we got together. I guess that’s what happens when you are with the right people.
Career wise, I’m totally stuck as you already know. It’s very important factor of our life for that’s how we earn money from. How you feel about your work affects your happiness.

I feel lots of stress and I’m under so much pressure.
I have no idea how long I can stay strong.

What I need right now is to be extra nicer to myself. I need to take better care of myself. I heed to love myself more. I should treat myself like a toddler just like Gretchen Rubin talked about in her podcast.

I have to be strong. I have to be back on the game.
But I need some time and rest, too.

I’ll do my best.

Next time I will write about something totally different. Something more uplifting and fun. Maybe I should put some nail pictures together since I haven’t wrote about my nails for a while.

Maybe some of you are going through tough time like me. I hope that we all make through this.
Nothing will stay the same. This too shall pas, as a wise man once said.
So let’s be nice to ourselves and to other people. Things will get better.

Love,
Ayako

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